But I'm sick of spending these lonely nights

perfect_pair @ 2005-07-05T11:54:00

2005-07-05T16:54:53Z

I know that that is the least attractive picture of me, but it sorta shows my hair. I was really excited in that picture. Maybe it was because I was ruling at beer pong that night.

perfect_pair @ 2005-07-02T17:26:00

2005-07-02T22:31:07Z

I really really really hate my hair cut.
It is too short & annoying & I am already sick of it.
It's one of those haircuts that looks kinda cool, but since you can only do one thing to it, it sucks.
I hate it so much that it is making me cry.
Hopefully it grows fast so that I can have my hair like it was 2 days ago. I liked that haircut.
This makes me want to give up on trying different styles. But then I realize that I am cool because I don't stick to one hair cut for forever.
I shouldn't be upset about it because it is hair & it will grow out & I can make it look good eventually, but I look stupid.
I am really close to cutting the rest of it off so it will just be really really short hair. I hate the way it looks from every angle.

Maybe I will post some pictures later. Like when I get internet at my house & don't have to go up to school or to my parents anymore.

perfect_pair @ 2005-06-24T15:07:00

2005-06-24T20:12:32Z

I am in the process of moving/packing right now, & it is the biggest bitch ever. I have never realized how much stuff/crap I own, & how I want to throw it all away. I am trying to get rid of so much stuff, but I am not being very succesful. When all my stuff is over at my new house, though, I am determined to throw away atleast half.

I am not going to have internet for a while either, which blows, which also means I have will be at my parents a lot to use their internet.

BUT, my new house is so cute & adorable & I can't wait to move in.
It's a 2 bedroom, 1 study, 1 bathroom. I am most excited about the study which will serve as a computer/craft room.

I am convinced it is the cutest kitchen ever.

my bedroom

living room

perfect_pair @ 2005-06-23T00:16:00

2005-06-23T05:18:05Z

I love bike rides. That are at night. That are during the summer. That are with my favorite people.

night rider death squad REPRESENT.

We seriously always have the best nights.

perfect_pair @ 2005-06-22T00:29:00

2005-06-22T05:35:54Z

Tonight we were supposed to go play pool. That didn't work out as planned so of course hanging out in the parking lot seemed like the best idea.

we are the most awesome girls ever.

& jackie and i hang out in the shrubbery.

& put dumb shit in our hoodies.

& hide behind trees.

& no.

& duh geo metros are like the coolest of the cool.

shocker.

perfect_pair @ 2005-06-20T23:44:00

2005-06-21T04:51:12Z

I am back from Europe & it is really weird.

So of course here are a few photos...

Sansoucci garden

Autostadt (that is filled with VW's that people have bought and all the cars are replaced everyday with new ones)

Autostadt

One of my most favorite snacks. Definately a plus on the train rides.

perfect_pair @ 2005-06-19T14:17:00

2005-06-19T12:19:00Z

I am leaving Germany in the morning to fly back to Lubbock.

Please give me ideas on how to stay longer, because going back is the last thing I want to do right now.

The only idea I have so far is to somehow put myself into the emergency room tonight....

Plus now I have a cold and that is no good for an 11 flight tomorrow.

p.s. I want a girls night asap. Tuesday would be AWESOME, but I know you girls have jobs so yeah.

perfect_pair @ 2005-06-09T04:56:00

2005-06-09T09:57:04Z

i am going to prague tomorrow.

you are not.

that 4 countries within a week.

awesome.

perfect_pair @ 2005-06-04T16:21:00

2005-06-04T14:24:04Z

hello everyone, i totally in denmark right now, in copenhagen.
i was at a small german island last night, took a ferry over to denmark today, slept in a train station for a few hours, caught another train to copenhagen.
tomorrow i am going to sweden. next weekend i am going to prague.

tonight i will be going clubbing. dance dance dance to the radio.

perfect_pair @ 2005-06-01T22:15:00

2005-06-01T20:19:01Z

i am still alive, i just have no internet.
i have a free weekend this weekend. and the next. oh so many places to stay. i want to extend my stay now.
there are cool people on this trip.
look in your mailbox, if you are cool, i probably sent you something.

perfect_pair @ 2005-05-22T16:42:00

2005-05-22T21:43:24Z

I am in the middle of Germany hanging out in small towns.
It's a lot cooler here. The houses and the buidlings are the shit.
I am giving off the wrong impression of how I feel here. It's awesome here, I just miss home. But I am so grateful for being here and drinking awesome beer and hangoing out with cool people.

perfect_pair @ 2005-05-18T11:33:00

2005-05-18T09:44:07Z

Update! Update!

I am Dunkin Donuts right now at an internet cafe. There is so much I have wanted to write in here but then I think that no one will care. It has taken me a few days to get adjusted to it here and realize that this is not 2 weeks in Europe like the past two times here. I am finally over my jetlag and feeling good. The first few days were shit because I was getting used to all the walking, eating different and barely any food, sleeping in a room with 5 other girls, sleeping in a bed ALONE with no kitties or Skot, not drinking regular water, etc.
But it is amazing here and I am lucky I get to do this so I need to quit my bitching.

I have seen so much fabulous stuff and not having to drive anywhere is nice. My handy got fixed today so that makes me happy because now people can call me and it won't cost me much money.

Rachele got here 2 nights ago so it's nice having your best friend in a city like this. We have a completely free day today so I am just going to go around with her.

I am seeing Star Wars tonight at Midnight which is 5 pm in Lubbock and it's weird that I will see it before a lot of my friends. George Lukas was in Potsdamer Platz yeterday and is supposed to be there today and that is where I am seeing it so maybe I will see him.

I haven't bought postcards yet, but that is on the agenda for today and then I will write to your guys and send them out at sometime.

I have uploaded my pictures onto one of the guys laptops here so when I find a wireless internet cafe I will send those to Skot who will upload them for me and then I will post them. The weather has been off and on with it being rainy one day then sunny the next, but it is still cold here. Colder than it should be.

I am going to go to Prague in a few weeks and spend a few days there which will be fun. I am now on my mission to drink good beer and it is nice being able to buy some booze anywhere I choose.

My german is coming together alright. I get really intimidated when I start speaking and a lot of people speak English so I have a nice mix of Germglish. But I have to write everyday in it so that is making it progress. Hopefully soon I will not be so shy to use my german skills.

I miss everyone a lot and I hope everyone is ok.

perfect_pair @ 2005-05-15T22:07:00

2005-05-15T20:09:41Z

HALLO!
I am in berlin. I made it ok, the flight was not as bad as the other times I have gone to europe. its freezing here.
tony hawk was on my plane here.
i went to some cool places today.
sorry if i dont comment now.
i will try.
i miss everyone.
i miss skot a lot.

i will be home in 5 weeks

perfect_pair @ 2005-05-11T15:20:00

2005-05-11T20:26:43Z

So I have been on summer vacation officially since Monday at noonish. Sadly it has yet to feel like it. All day (for the past few days) I have been running errands, getting all my shit together to leave on Saturday (oh yeah, I am not leaving a day early to go to Dallas). Before I leave I need to pack up most of my apartment too. Oh & to make my week even more stressful, the fucking travel agency misspelled my name on my ticket! Seriously. The lady told me it shouldn't be that big of a deal, but I believe it might be since I am on an international flight & my fucking name on the ticket doesn't match the name on the passport!
My nights have been filled with sitting on the couch. I have yet to see any of my friends & to go get trashed at bars.
I had thought about getting together a sort of going away thing, but alas, I have not. Maybe we could all go to the gay bar tomorrow night? That would be fun.

I wish I didn't have to do anything else today & could just sit at home. I need to clean. But I also need to go the bank to get some Euro's, go by Armadillo Camera, I am doing some more work for Study Breaks magazine so I have to do that, but that gives me money.

Oh yes. I believe we (me, Skot, & my current roommate Khim who actually doesn't live with me) have found a place to live. That is exciting news I do believe. But it is close to school which is great.
Speaking of great, Skot just showed me a Hello Kitty bicycle which will be in my possession by the end of summer.

perfect_pair @ 2005-05-09T23:52:00

2005-05-10T04:54:47Z

My brother & I took some nice photos for Mother's Day.

Check out those blue eyes we both sport. Thanks mom.

Sweet no makeup except mascara. Somedays I believe makeup is overrated, others I believe it is necessary. Freckles, freckles everywhere.

perfect_pair @ 2005-05-08T22:35:00

2005-05-09T03:43:21Z

So yeah, I leave for Berlin in less than a week. I am leaving Lubbock a day early (Friday) to drive to Dallas. Later this week (probably Wednesday) I plan to have a get-together somewhere (suggestions accepted)to say bye to everyone that cares to say bye.

My happiness/sadness/scaredness levels vary day to day. My life has not been this great in a while though, which makes it hard to leave. By leaving I am missing out on things for 5 weeks. 5 weeks of no friends (minus Rachele!!!! who I am seeing in Berlin), 5 weeks of no boyfriend, family, kitties.

I am so excited to go though. I am going to be in Berlin for 1 week, traveling to various smaller cities for another week (Thale, Celle, Quedlinburg), then on the 26th I start school in Wust. I am taking 2 classes which will complete my minor in German. There is a trip to Prague in the works (with my best friend), perhaps a trip to Auschwitz, & perhaps a trip to the beach (on the North Sea!).

But by doing all this I am going to miss out on so much here.
I am honestly more scared of how things will be when I return. Things with friends & the boyfriend & if my kitties will remember me. & when I return I have 10 days to find a place to live & pack & move.

Later this week I will be requesting address of everyone to send postcards. This livejournal will probably turn into a Germany journal of some sorts, & also to keep various people updated on my life.

1. I have one final left & I don't give two shits about studying for it.
2. Go get the new studybreaks magazine. I took the cover shot.
3. I think it is an alright time for me to go to sleep now.

perfect_pair @ 2005-05-06T15:58:00

2005-05-06T21:03:39Z

1. old navy khaki bag. it holds my life everyday.
2. ipod headphones.
3. camera bag.
4. wallet with - money, drivers license, student i.d., 2 credit cards, debit card, insurance card, 2 gas cards, cvs card, b&n gift card, & a business card.
5. fruit loops chapstick.
6. altoids cherry gum & altoids rasberry sours.
7. coach sunglasses.
8. clear eyes eye drops, chapstick, red lipstick.
9. 2 pencils, 1 pen.
10. bottle opener thing i got last night for cinco de mayo.
11. 2 notepads (these are my life).

what's in yours?

I got out all my textbooks to take back to sell today & I set them on my bed. Well Grissom has decided that sleeping with books in a good option.

perfect_pair @ 2005-05-04T01:28:00

2005-05-04T15:47:06Z

Sweet I just took that personality defect test & I scored as a sociopath. "As a result of your cold, calculating rationality, your introversion (and ability to keep quiet), your brutality, and your arrogance, you would make a very cunning serial killer."

Oh & I have completed my junior year of college (minus the 3 finals) but I am not going to graduate next may like I am supposed to. Stupid transferring.

perfect_pair @ 2005-05-01T11:38:00

2005-05-01T16:44:59Z

Last night was Rachel G.'s birthday party followed by 1 drink at Shooterz. It was all fun fun.

& here are

joelle, rachel, ro

vicky & reed

reed & tan tan

me & vicky

me & megan

rachel

vicky & reed

derek

joelle & ro

tanner, evan, derek

skawt

kitty!

kitty wanting to kill me

me, vicky, reed

vicky & me

vicky, evan, me

joelle & reed

then we went over to shooterz...

me & kris

jo & john

kris & skot

boyfriend!

me & jo

perfect_pair @ 2005-04-29T18:31:00

2005-04-29T23:34:35Z

Shit my hair is all gone & one solid color.

There is reasoning behind this though.
I am leaving the country in less than 2 weeks & I want no fuss hair. I don't want to deal with colors fading, & I don't want to spend a lot of time fixing my hair, & the power outlets there are picky about the adapters so in some places I might not be able to use my straightener & blow-dryer.

perfect_pair @ 2005-04-26T16:35:00

2005-04-26T21:42:55Z

So Skot made me this & it is so awesome I can't even explain.

& then today I went & bought

Ok, ok I know I already have a somewhat better digital camera than this, but there is some reasoning behind this purchase.
1. My current digital camera (Nikon Coolpix 5700) is large, & I want something small to take to Germany with me.
2. I am going to be giving away my coolpix at the end of the summer to my brother
3. because I will be buying this

The new one. The brand new one that will make my life complete.

So now I can always carry around a camera because my new one is so tiny & cute & not lumpy & big like my coolpix.

perfect_pair @ 2005-04-20T14:42:00

2005-04-20T19:48:20Z

Oh Lubbock, how did you become so beautiful?

I have finally gotten to the point that I am beyond excited to go to Germany. For a little bit I didn't want to go & really regretted my decision to do it, but not anymore. I am not going to be gone THAT long. So far everything looks like it is going to be good on the trip. I will be in Berlin for a week, travel through smaller cities & such for another week (Thale, Burg Falkenstein, Quedlinburg, Celle). Outside of Celle I get to go to the VW manufacturing plant which is also sort of like an amusement park. I start school the 26th of May in Wust where I will live with a family. Rachele is going to come up to Berlin to visit me. I am going to try to go to Prague to see her. Maybe some other random trips on weekends? I need to get my Eurorail pass together & my international student ID. I also need to find all my Euro's so I have some money when I get over there.

perfect_pair @ 2005-04-10T12:36:00

2005-04-10T17:38:52Z

Thank you Jackie, it was a lot of fun.

perfect_pair @ 2005-04-06T18:26:00

2005-04-06T23:27:48Z

To lighten my journal up a bit.

perfect_pair @ 2005-04-04T21:46:00

2005-04-05T02:52:26Z

My aunt passed away today due to brain cancer. It's not like it was unexpected, just it was this early.
I have cried & cried.
But I had already sort of prepared myself for her death. My aunt is gone, but that is not what keeps running through my mind.
It's:
My cousins no longer have a mom.
My uncle no longer has a wife.
My grandmother no longer has a daughter.
My dad no longer has a sister.

She was really young & my cousins are only a few years older than me.
Just keep my family in your thoughts.
It's hard. This is the only time a person close to me has died.